As I walk through my journey, I've begun to reflect on two women very important to who I've become. I recently reread the memory book my mother made for me. Several things resonate deeply within me and I see exactly where I come from. I apparently had no choice but to be exactly who I am! I'm so sad that my mother isn't here to see me become again the me she once knew...and so much more.
Her thoughts from the book:
My grandmother dreamed that everyone in the whole world would be "good". She wanted her family to be happy. Among her favorites were the Bible, summer, country music and Tennessee. She wanted love and peace and a nice home. My mother believed that her mother's finest quality was loving us. My mother wished that they had said more "I love you". My grandmother's example taught my mother to be friendly. The things that I do that reminded my mother of grandmother: opinionated (also like my mom) speak my mind (like my mom) and laugh a lot...friendliness - liking people.
My mother read a lot...she was very law abiding and expected others to be also. As a child she dreamed of being happy.
What she learned about boys that she wanted me to know: if you are kind and considerate of others people's feelings you will never regret it.
What attracted her to my father: his caring, calm, sweet, thoughtful self and his good looks. :)
This made me cry...her favorite memory of their wedding day...the first two words she wrote were, "Beautiful sunshine"
Of me she wrote:
Smiling, loving, being friendly and loyal came easily for you.
Says it's most difficult for me when people are not friendly or not nice to me.
Of our friendship she says: I can talk to you very truly. It is something I appreciate because I've always been very private and never talked with anyone most of the time. I just kept everything inside. I love our friendship.
Her dreams for me:
To be happy, loving and loved. Always remember the other person's feelings!
What she learned from her life:
Try to understand that we are all different (as we should be) with our thoughts of how things should be. Be patient with your loved ones and love them all!
How she thought I was like her:
You have my impatience with people at times. You speak up and are not afraid to stand up for yourself. You like things neat and clean. You expect people to do their job.
How she thought we were different:
You meet life head on and aren't afraid of change and you love social functions.
How she thought I was completely different from anyone she'd ever met: You are VERY loving and have more love to give than anyone I've ever known. Keep giving that love and happiness and think positive happy thoughts and if you can't, SAY positive things!
Oh, how I wish I had known of this book while she was still here. I would have loved to talk about it with her.
I have become my grandmother, my mother and myself...I'm so proud to have been influenced by such strong and loving women. I miss their touch and voices...so grateful that they loved me the way they did.
Today's Silver Lining: I am me.
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